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Transparency Time: The Birds of the Air…

Back with another one! I pray that everyone’s week is going well!

So as you can see from the title, I would like to be transparent about my stressful day yesterday and how God encouraged me. I hope it can encourage you too. So I’m in my very last semester of nursing school and during Spring Break I signed up to go on a Trip to Jamaica with some other nursing students. We will be doing service activities and also exploring the place. I’ve been so determined and excited to go for a year now so I went for it! I wanted to do this to show myself that I could. Now that I’m in the Transcultural class and the trip is getting closer and closer, anxiety and worry have started to set in and of course Satan took the open door I gave Him to plant doubt in my mind: “Are you sure you should be going on this trip? You won’t have any of your family or friends going with you. You’ll be by yourself and alone. You’re going to pay $1000 to go and be miserable. This is your last Spring Break and your sister actually has the same Spring Break with you for the first time in forever, you really want to spend it this way? “ Unfortunately, I’m not the Superwoman Christian that I desire to be one day so no, I didn’t “capture every thought” and “make it obedient to Christ (2 Corinthians 10:5). I entertained it. Right after this class, I received an email from one of my professors. In nursing school, we have what’s called “remediation hours” that we do to help us get ready for NCLEX based on the score you received on the practice exam. I have to spend 10 hours a week on top of the rest of the work we have to do. I’ve been diligent about keeping up with my time however, my professor tells me that she can only account for 7 hours and I’m 3 hours short. She tells me I need to add the 3 hours to this week’s, making it 13 total. Great! After sitting in a funk for a while I decided to take a drive to my favorite place when I’m stressed: Sonics. I sat there and fooled myself into thinking that joy could be found at the bottom of my chocolate fudge sundae. Yea, talk about maladaptive coping mechanisms. To my surprise, this didn’t work (major sarcasm)! Then I had the idea to drive around, looking at houses and praying to God. I wanted answers on what to do. I wanted peace and assurance that I wasn’t on the wrong track or made the wrong decision about this trip. I’m not sure how long this little excursion lasted but when it was over, I was headed back to school when I remembered I needed to go get food.  So, I went to Zaxby’s and ordered a Fried Chicken Caesar Salad at the drive thru. Little did I know then that God was about to show up. I was waiting in line when I noticed this bird sitting in the bush right next to my car. Peacefully and quietly. Gradually, it hopped to the top of the bush when I pulled up closer to the bush and just stood there perched on this branch, like it was there just so I could look at it. I was looking for the bird to take flight but it just stood there. This is when the Holy Spirit acted as the “reminder”
He promised He would be (John 14: 26). My inner ear heard and I began to quote Matthew 6: 26: Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? I know this was God because anyone who knows me knows I’m not a fan of birds at all lol! But I knew God was then telling me not to worry. He’s in control and He’s with me. There

What to take away from this…

I love that God is sovereign and omnipresent. Since He’s in control of everything and is everywhere at the same time, we can enter the world expecting to “see God” whether it’s through creation, His people, or even a bird. God is the master of “Connect-the-Dots” and making sure the linear paths of so many things (such as me and this bird) meet at one point, or dot, after another to display this beautiful image of His presence in our lives. I pray that this can be a blessing and remember God is in control so surrender our stress!

God is love and He is awesome,

-Jasmine

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Chosen: A Quiet Time Revelation

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Hey guys,

Have you ever felt like you don’t matter? Like your life doesn’t have meaning? Like you’re insignificant and not really all that important? LORD KNOWS I HAVE! And even as a Christian sometimes I still do. But recently the Word of God spoke something to my heart that I would like to share and I pray I never forget.

Ephesians 1:11: “In him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will…” 

When I read this the word “chosen” jumped out at me and I was prompted to look up this word in the dictionary like I often do. This isn’t because I don’t know what it means but sometimes doing this puts the word in a newer and brighter light than they have when I just use them in everyday life. Here’s what I found:

Chosen: having been selected as the best or most appropriate.

That’s when it hit me! God has known us all for a long time, even before our ancestors were created. Even before the World was created. During this time God created His will, His”good,pleasing and perfect will” (Romans 12:2). God is such a master planner that He set His ultimate goals and every single step needed in order to bring this will to fruition. When He did this, He also assigned tasks to people who He saw would be the best and most appropriate for His master plan. The name of every living and breathing person came to God’s mind. This includes me. This also includes you. Realizing this should give us peace in knowing that there’s no way we could be accidents. I don’t know my exact purpose in this life yet and you may not either. I’m learning that it’s ok! The Bible clearly states that we should trust in Him with all our hearts, not lean to our own understanding, and acknowledge Him in all our ways and then our paths will be directed by Him (Proverbs 3:5-6). If we are doing this then wherever we are in life is exactly where God wants us to be, no matter how dull or pointless it may seem. He will not reveal His entire plan for us from beginning to end at one time so this is where the trust has to come in for us all. Realize that God doesn’t want to hide us from the reason we were created. However, there is a time of preparation that we must endure that may outlast our patience at times. I understand very well how trusting God through the silence and uncertainty is difficult, but the best things for us usually require hard work. So let’s practice resting and trusting in the Lord together!

-Jasmine
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A Sign Is Not Always the Answer

Hey guys! Quick side note before I get into this blog.  I know that my blogs do not have a certain rhyme or reason and tend to be all over the place when it comes to topics but I gave up on trying to make this blog what I think it should be. At the beginning, I tried to bring my perfectionist persona into building this blog and started planning how, what, when, I was going to do everything. That plan failed miserably really fast. If you could take a peek behind the scenes of this blog site, you would see that there are about 3 or 4 unfinished blogs sitting idle, waiting to be brought into the Internet world. But they were birthed from ideas that I thought would be good to write about. However, I couldn’t finish them. The writer’s block was so real and I believe it is because I was trying to write about God without His help. After taking a hiatus from blogging, I came back recently and decided that I was only going to write about things I feel inspired and led to write about through faith. Lately, ideas out of left field have come into my head and it’s like I was given actual sentences and points to address. What’s even more awesome is that I know these ideas aren’t my own because I need a lot of this stuff for myself. The stuff I write about aren’t things that I’ve mastered by no means! All in all, it’s been cool seeing the verses I’ve read in the Bible being brought to life and used in real life situations. God’s word is alive and active so cheers to letting God lead!

The Blog Starts Now!

So I was in my Community Health Class and we were watching a documentary on “The Lost Children of Rockdale” and one of the guys being interviewed started talking about how he gave his life to Christ after living a life full of anger, violence, and a lot of other things! The Christians he associated with on the documentary described him as a perfect example of a true convert and noted his fire for God was so noticeable. After time went on, this guy started praying for God to give him a sign that He was real and that his transformation and new spiritual walk wasn’t just all in his head. He prayed and prayed and prayed….. nothing happened. So, he interpreted this silence as confirmation that it was indeed all made up and eventually reverted back to his old ways. I was hurt to hear that. Not just because of him but also because I feel as if a sign from God is what many people are looking for, but don’t always receive. I remember on numerous occasions after coming to Christ where I was so obsessed with wanting to “hear God’s voice” audibly and was upset when I didn’t. To me, that would have made God so real! I would learn much later what hearing His voice truly meant, but that’s only because I just knew God had to be real and I couldn’t give up. Later on that day, I was wondering why God sometimes doesn’t give people the sign they believe they need, much like the guy in the video. Something I often do in my head is place myself inside of whatever situation is going on around me as if it were happening to me or as if I was talking to the person that was going through the situation. I was curious to know what I, as a believer, would have to say to someone who was ready to throw in the towel on God because they believe He ignored them and wouldn’t give them a sign. This blog I’m sharing with you is the response I was led to give on why a sign is not always the answer.

Some were given plenty of signs…

If I were to close my eyes and thumb through the Old Testament, I’m pretty confident that whatever my finger landed on would probably be a sign that God used to communicate to the people back in this time. But since there are so many, I will center on the instance that came to my mind first: the Israelites Moses led out of Egypt. The signs God gave them were ALL OVER THE PLACE: All the plagues, the cloud that led them by day, the pillar of fire that led them by night, the parting of the Red Sea, the manna He gave them to eat, the rock Moses struck that gave them water, and just in case you missed it the first time, HE PARTED THE RED SEA!! However, this still wasn’t enough. Despite all of these signs, they still whined, complained, doubted, and flat out didn’t trust God to provide for them. It’s so easy for us (the people of today) to say “man, if I was living back then and saw all that there’s NO way I wouldn’t believe in God!” What I came to realize is that the nature embedded in the people of that time is the same nature we are born with now so we have to be careful thinking this way. It’s human nature to try to make sense of as much as we can and rationalize things despite the Bible making it clear in Isaiah 55:8 that God thinks and acts in a completely different way than we do. Also, the Bible we have to depend on now was being written before their very eyes, so God had to use these means more so in order to get through to them. One of Priscilla Shirer’s sermons (If you don’t know she was the woman that played an AWESOME role in the movie War Room)  mentioned how the people of the Old Testament wanted the constant and readily available indwelling of God’s Spirit like we have just as bad as we sometimes want the signs they had! Ultimately, God wants us to operate in the foundation of  Christianity: faith!

The issue with depending on signs…

Now, I’m not saying that God has completely abandoned giving people signs altogether, but signs cannot be the basis of our loyalty to Him. The Bible makes it clear that His people are to walk by faith and NOT BY SIGHT( 2 Corinthians 5:7 ). To better understand this it is important to know the definition of faith. Hebrews 11:1 tells us that faith is having confidence in what we hope for and assurance of the things we cannot see! Verse 6 then tells us that we cannot please God without faith! With that being said, asking for signs in a way is asking to see…God is God so He doesn’t have to prove anything to us but He did it anyway through the Bible. It’s then up to us to believe. So if He sees fit to give you a sign, then that’s because He saw it was truly needed for His purpose. If He doesn’t, then we must operate in faith and trust that God knows what we need more than we do. When you need answers, look to prayer and God’s Word first because these are the two main ways we have communication with Him. I pray this has been a blessing!

Keep the faith!

-Jasmine

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